I am a very honest person.
Honest!
I try not to lie.
Mostly I manipulate the truth so well I don’t even need to lie.
See!
Am I not honest?
I mean who would say that?
Haa??
Say that they are manipulative?
And off late I am trying to fight the urge to tell my mom that I am gay.
I mean should I or not?
Many friends will tell not, especially since I am Bi (I think, right now I don’t know, but I just am not straight)
And perhaps should wait for what if I find a great guy to marry? Then it will not be worth putting my parents through heartache and me through constant ….something…..i don’t yet know how mom would react.
I mean it wont be totally a surprise.
I mean she knows.
Once we were out for dinner, and my sis tells my mom and dad that “Piya is seeing a girl now” and my mom freezes for a sec and then recovers and says, “But whatever it is she is going to marry a guy from Calcutta”
So see! She refused to pursue it.
Or may be she did but I said that I admired her and thought her brilliant and were not going around.
Oh yes! I am a very honest person.
8 comments:
I can see you are really struggling w/this. Being Bi & being a Lesbian are not the same thing, you know that.
If you are Bi then getting married is an option. But, if you are a lesbian, you would be miserable. Find out yourself, first. I think you are wanting to talk to someone about it. (maybe unconscience(?) desire to get advice) talk to your mother if you think she can be rational about it...
Isn't there a school counselor or some kind of professional advisor, you could go to? (someone who has come 'out of the closet' themselves?
Ultimatally, the decison is yours & lots of people have 'come out of the closet' You are not a dishonest person, you are just afraid to expose the real you.
Here I am going on. I haven't been there, myself. I know you are in a tough positon tho.
Good luck, shona!!!
thanks you guys!
why does l>t talking about 'coming out of the closet' reminds me of boggarts?
that is the silliest i could ever be...
solan, that is the term, used to signify um...coming out.
I guess the term 'coming out of the closet' is a bit archaic. :)
What are boggarts?
a harry potter term.
Oh, O.K. :)
U.G u've been with me for long now, for that kindda comment.
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