Saturday, December 31, 2005


“All this theorizing about sex does not come to any good ....Get some first”

It’s the first minute of the last day of this year. And I want to write like I have never before and I figured that will be easy cos I hardly really write. Ok for people who don’t know me in a world other than this (blog) My name is Arunlekha. And the thing that bugs me the most bout me is that am still a virgin. Many would think that I might be worried or bugged about my weight or even my hair (body hair even). But its not. The thing that scares me the most is that I have diabetes and am so scared that I haven’t checked my sugar levels in months. So my first resolution would be to get my sugar levels checked. The one thing I want the most in my life is to have a baby (a daughter) and strangely the thing that scares me and the thing that bugs me stand in way of the thing that I want the most.
My first memories are of my sister’s birth. She was born in 1985 Feb, so like 2 years and 7 months after me. So I remember from the time my mother was in the nursing home. I don’t know why am saying that but just am. My pet name (nick name sorts) is Piya and my sis is called Pom at home and our dog is called Pushkin. I have cousins called sriya diya riya, and a niece called diya.
And the title is the first piece of advice/dig I received on this last day of the year.
And this is the weirdest I’ve written ever.
the pic is titled Flux

Friday, December 30, 2005

Darkest Eye

Pondering the loneliness
Etched upon your face
Like grey clouds
in a spring sky
Monsoon mist and me?

echo in your eyes
pondering the loneliness
Etched upon your face
I steal a look
and once again

you look right away
I stand bewildered
I fall in love

beauty stunning beauty
measures full in darkest eye.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

ugly girl lyrics

Ugly Girl
by Fleming and John

When I saw you at the grocery store
you were sharing a shopping cart with her
and I couldn't turn and run away
I didn't know what to say

You introduced us for the first time
and I had to look her in the eye
but you could not imagine my surprise
can't you see
you're leaving me
for an ugly girl

Does she talk about politics
and all the stuff that used to make me sick
does she smoke cigars and stay up late?
oh she's so great

Does she tell you what you want to hear
and I bet that she can grow a beard
I'd feel better thinking you were queer
it's not fair
I can't compare
to an ugly girl

ha ha ha
ha ha the jokes on me
I feel jealous and I feel mean
is she so nice that it makes up for her face
there's no way

Do you have to keep your eyes closed
do you have to keep the lights down low
oh I bet you wish you had a blindfold
can't you see
you're leaving me
for an ugly girl.

I am some how feeling really strong emotions now.
dont know what they are yet!
Am somehow pissed.
should i be?

On this chinese Year.

I Wanted to write something about the Chinese New Year which falls on the 29th of January this year,by the western calendar. This new year is known as the Year of the Dog.Incidentally,I was born in the year of the dog, in 1982. There are 12 animal names; so by this system, year names are re-cycled every 12 years.
It is going to be the Year 4703 by the Chinese calendar, this Year.
It is going to be the year 1413 by the Bengali calendar this year.

In the Western calendar terminology:
Decade = 10 years
Century = 100 years
Millennium = 1,000 years
For example, 2005 is in the Third Mllenmium, 21-th Century, first decade and 5-th year.
In Chinese calendar terminology:
Great Year = 12 years
Cycle = 5 Great Years = 60 years
Epoch = 60 Cycles = 60 x 60 years = 3,600 years

We are now in the Second Epoch.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

New Year Resolutions

the curse continues

tsunami in the indian ocean regions,...............26 th december 2004

Monday, December 26, 2005

curse of the 26th

earthquake in gujarat.......26th january 2001

dilwale dulhaniya le jaayenge

Now coming off the early morning blues!
these three movies i feel i can watch any time from any where.

My Mood This Morning

And All That Mattered Lay Half Shattered.


Sunday, December 25, 2005

What Happened in Calcutta

I havenot been writing for quite a while and thats not cause i dont have a story to tell cause i do! the trip to cal was quite eventful if not out of the world exciting. but i dont really know where to begin should i start at the train journey to howrah and what really happened at bhubaneshwar station. or how R and I crossed 7 compartments to smoke one cigarette. should i talk about my cousin who came to Howrah to recieve me and immediately began to show me the SMS s he and his married female colleage have been sharing with each other. and how serene guy, my girl cousin and I had to go to flury s with motives other than the need for a cuppa.
I will also have to tell a story of patriarchy as blatant as the bad smell at howrah....but till i can put a distance to the trip, i will talk of other things.


Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Hyderabad By Night!

the time now is 20th decemeber, 2005

1:44 in the afternoon.(time of post not of pic)

Monday, December 19, 2005

Am back where i belong

I returned home today!
And what elation i felt in my heart
as the plane soared over begumpet to land.
I apologise to all my friends who leave away from home,
if i have ever pooh-pohed their homesickness.
For even if away is paradise,
home is what the heart wants,

Thursday, December 01, 2005

  1. seven Things I Want To Do Before I Die
    1 Open a school.
    2 Should earn enough money to survive without working hard :)
    3 should have lived in New York, London or Paris
    4 Write a book.
    5 Come out to parents
    6 Buy a wonderful cottage.
    7 Learn Telugu.

  2. Seven Things I Want To Do in the Next Year
    1 have sex
    2 get a job
    3 read all of tagore and Bankim
    4 get my sugar levels down to normal
    5 go to Bombay
    6 move out of home
    7 get another piercing in my left ear.

  3. Seven Things I Can Do NOW
    1 never judge
    2 be open to anything new
    3 Put myself in others shoes
    4 laugh loudly (even at ones self)
    5 read others' thoughts (yes! Yes!..i think)
    6 whistle
    7 write little poemlets

  4. Seven Things I can't Do EVER
    1 Paint/draw
    2 Tell a lie without feeling bad/guilty
    3 run
    4 Hurt someone without feeling guilty
    5 play any sport
    6 Murder
    7 Act
  5. Seven Things That Attract Me to the Opposite Sex:
    1 height
    2 dark skin
    3 shyness
    4 honesty
    5 vulnerability
    6 ruggedness
    7 Big hands ;)

  6. Seven Things That Attract Me to the same Sex:
    1. Big ��守m��色��. Breasts
    2. Pretty smile
    3. Shyness
    4. The fact that she likes me
    5. Small hands and feet
    6. Aggressiveness
    7. Elusiveness

  7. Seven Things I love most:
    1 Reading
    2 monsoon
    3 traveling by local train
    4 smoking in my balcony
    5 the colour orange
    6 being on the phone
    7 cartoons

  8. Seven Things I hate most:
    1 having called someone and that one is busy
    2 the one I am talking to is distracted
    3 judgmental people
    4 religion
    5 liars
    6 the double bed in my room
    7 Cleaning room

  9. Seven Things I Say Most (in no particular order) :
    1 Thanks/Thank you
    2 Right!
    3 I believe you!
    4 Big deal!
    5 Listen naa!
    6 Promise you won���t tell anyone?
    7 I love you


am going to calcutta today. will return only on the 20th or so, thus will not be able to blog much!
wait till i return though!