I just realised that it’s been a long time since I have opened my word document and written anything. Everything for a while has been impromptu. Made up at the moment for the moment (perhaps even by the moment) that is why some people’s writing impresses me so much. Mizfit’s for example. I don’t say this cos she is my girlfriend abut also that sometimes however corny she writes it comes up with a lot of energy and investment at many levels (ok if not many at least 2). There are many blogs many others like but I like reading personal stuff, or stuff coloured by personal events. For me that’s a good blog you know. My colleague manasa harikar’s blog is just a few days old but her poemlets though from a new blogger (poet) are refreshing.
My recent favourite is www.veganlunchbox.blogspot.com cos though I am not a vegan, I like the way the food looks in here.
So what had I sat down to write?
A reply –response (not a rebuttal) of what misfit had written.
I was going to write about how I feel about women.
Women have always been this alien entity to me. I like them, lust after them, hate them, want to get away from them, smell them, bite them, hit them, kiss them, but I cant just ignore them. Till I was 15 years old and till I studied in a co-ed school, I did not know that I could get attracted to girls; I still had the most tumultuous relationships with them. A year later as I joined a girls college I started fearing them, I did not like a large group of women, I could not get to close to them, I felt they were looking at me, at my body. (you never know some of them perhaps were..lol)
I started having crushes on women and was completely in awe of those women and generally all women. I could not make eye contact with them for quite a while. (Yes yes I still am like that……yes yes call me a coward)
I still am really almost like that but I like women at least and am not too scared of them now. But I am a putty in a lot of their hand. I make Maggie for them, do the little favours, I like to think I can protect them. Hehe. Corny no?
This post is to be cut short as sis is bugging me.